my parents want me to move home :(

full moon

my new feather braid

muffler I knit

thrifted jacket kennedy got me

Mercury in Retrograde

so as of 4:45 tomorrow, mercury will officially be in retrograde for the first of four times this year. This typically means that stuff in your life will get all crazy and terrible and unexpected things will happen,

"Mercury retrograde gives rise to personal misunderstandings; flawed, disrupted, or delayed communications, negotiations and trade; glitches and breakdowns with phones, computers, cars, buses, and trains. And all of these problems usually arise because some crucial piece of information, or component, has gone astray or awry.
It is therefore not wise to make important decisions while Mercury is retrograde, since it is very likely that these decisions will be clouded by misinformation, poor communication and careless thinking. Mercury is all about mental clarity and the power of the mind, so when Mercury is retrograde these intellectual characteristics tend to be less acute than usual, as the critical faculties are dimmed. Make sure you pay attention to the small print!"

Even though this doesn't start for another day or so, the worst of it usually happens when mercury slows a few days prior. I've been picking fights with people, doing really mean stuff behind people's backs, hating everything about myself and my life...just fucking things up all over the place. Also, the moon will be full in about 35 minutes which makes people all kinds of crazy too. I wish i could just hibernate and sleep the crazy off.

Movies

Frida

8 women

unforgiven

delicatessen

there will be blood

tropic thunder

the jerk

being john malkovich
1408

crazy love

this american life season 1

before the devil knows you're dead

casino

let's dance!

PLANET EARTH - Bird Of Paradise - Click here for the funniest movie of the week
She's NOT impressed

HAIR

Yay! Hair!! Finally.

ME today




Today I'm going to rent a bunch more movies, make a pie, do yoga, maybe read in the coffee shop while it snows and feel better about my skin and hair.

I just got my computer running again and I've realized how ugly I've gotten over the years. I'm not fishing for compliments but CHEESE AND RICE I let myself go. The good news is that I'm on the up and up what with caring about myself and all.
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last summer when I got fake sober for a week.



I don't have any current picture because I'm scared to see how I really look but my skin doesn't look grey anymore :) I do yoga almost every day now and I sleep well and even though I'm still kind of miserable, I feel a thousand times better physically.

I got a job at the laundromat next door and get paid minimum wage on book. Its really easy and they have cable but will I be able to make rent? Definitely not. I miss everyone and I'm really trying to answer my phone and be social so don't give up on me...

in memoriam: full cable and DVR 07-08

netflix:
slums of beverly hills
but I'm a cheerleader
secretary
hapiness
broken english
the ice storm
sopranos
my so-called life
the simple life
2 days in paris
night on earth
the brandon teena story
i like killing flies
oh in ohio

Jenna and her computer have come back back from cali cali

I've been watching an average of 3 movies a day (4 or 5 if I'm not working which is rare) and I can't even remember what all of them were but I'll try to make a list. My super beautiful and intelligent friend Kennedy came to Boston for a few days to hide from life and we had a very pleasant time watching movies, eating subs and shopping. I miss waking up to the sight of a tiny girl curled up in a ball with her mouth gaping open and cuddling with an old slip. Its been over a week since she left and I haven't had any contact with friends since last night when jenna returned so its been a pretty solitary week.







p.s. my sunflowers are alive and well!